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Thursday, July 13, 2006

Hello everyone!okay...this is a very very stupid thursday luh.and I just like cannot sleep well at night!CAUSE THE PROBLEM IS THAT I CAN'T EVEN SLEEP!!!I reallly dunno what's going on in my head now.A lot of things going around me...I dun even know how to choose and make my decisions.People they are starting to help me decide how my life will go on? Is that supposed to happen.I mean like this is my life, not your life.And you don't have a say in it although you can influence me to belief in what you think.But most probably I wil say a definite no to you.HOwever, I can only say "no"in my heart and not aloud to everyone.So I just want to say just leave me alone and let me decide on my choices.Stop controlling me.Its very frustrating.So back off and keep quiet.YOu know who you all are.Sooooooooooo JUST GET OFFFFFFFF MYYYYYYYYY BACK!!!!

I am going terribly insane at this moment.One moment say want to come to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ then another moment say dun want.WHAT THE HELL YOU ALL WANT!!cannot get a life is it.Go and get a life la.GO to other _ _ _ _ _ _ _if you want.I wouldn't care less about you.

What's wrong with my damn life? I just seem to cannot cope with eveyrthing.Everything's seems to rush off very fast like air and wind.I cannot seem to catch up too...And its like I am going to like quit one of my most enjoyable hobbbies if I cannot cope with my _ _ _ _ _ _ _?oh man...I dun feel like doing anything I like.Training is tomorrow...but I have like a day full of lessons tomorrow? I am like having so many projects here and there.I think I will lock myself in my house and not go anywhere till I get better grades than my previous ones.And I better prepare another backup _ _ _ _ _ _ if I get _ _ _ _ _ by _ _ _ _ _ _ _.I went for acupuncture le.okay...the muscles are beginning to soften up a bit.But acupuncture's a bit of a torture for me.They will twist and turn the needle inside.until your muscle will feel like damn pain and very sourish that kind of feelings.SERIOUS muscle cramps.like real.I dun give a damn about what the chinese'western doctors say.People recover because of themselves. I feel like giving up this whole damn _ _ _ _ _ _ _ thing luh.

I really need something some miracle some aspirations /inspirations to inspire me.yes.That's what I need most now.okay.

And I just found out today that I have an alergic to soft drinks.cause when I drank Htwo-o, I became damn lethargic and then my whole brain like became blank like that.cannot think.but this reaction i think will not appear so often once in a while if I drink too many soft drinks then wil appear ba.

Yawn!okay.gotta go le!bye!tomorrow have training...wonder if I survive tomorrow.

CHEERS
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7:08 AM.

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